19.12.2008

He heard me and has answered my prayer. last night it took a while before a fell asleep. too nervous about today.
i've just came back from Church. i am in peace. i feel so relieved. i was waiting for bunie at the back row and the numbers of people getting more and more and yet, they went fast because there were 4 priests in charged of the English group.
as we were getting nearer to our turn, i was getting more nervous. walking to the altar makes me feel like fainting. but, praise the Lord, everything was fine. FINALLY, i've managed to go through the penitential service. and that means, i'll be able to receive Communion which i have been longing for all this while. Praise the Lord again for He is forever merciful!
while doing my penance, i feel that God is great. How small and lowly i am in His presence. in Mary's song of praise, Mary said,

"My heart praises the Lord:
my soul is glad because of God my Saviour,
for He has remembered me,
His lowly servant!
From now on all people will call me happy,
because of the great things the Mighty God has done for me.
His name is holy;
from one generation to another
He shows mercy to those who honor Him.
He has stretched out His mighty arm
and scattered the proud with all their plans.
He has brought down mighty kings from their thrones,
and lifted up the lowly.
He has filled the hungry with good things,
and sent the rich away with empty hands.
He has kept the promise He made to our ancestors,
and has come to the help of His servant Israel.
He has remembered to show mercy to Abraham
and to all His descendants forever!"
- Luke 1:46-55 -

i has been two years and now i am so glad! Praise the Lord that He has never condemned and praise Him that He is love. For all the wrongs i've done, He still bless me with wonders. i feel sooo freeee! yeay! i'll have a great Christmas! He is the reason of the season!